Dad you are supposed to be the one man in my life that will never hurt me or break my heart, but you have already done both to me and I'm not even 20 yet. You couldn't see that holding on to that little piece of safety was all I had left. You just thought I was being stubborn and maybe part of me was, but in reality I was just scared of getting hurt again and knew that if I stayed away from the drama I would be safe. By then I had already started to dread going to your house every other weekend, and when I had to be there I would try to hide from it all. When I couldn't take it anymore and tried to walk away from it all, you chose to yell at me and tell me not to walk away you wanted me to stand there and let her win and let her break me, but I never did. You never once stood up or defended me you just let her rip in to me and destroy me emotionally. The worst part of it all and the part that hurt the absolute most was when all of this was happening right in front of you. The thing is, I know that you want us to move on from it, but I can’t just look over all of the pain I have gone through. I also know that when I have asked to see them and hang out with them, you have said no and always gave me some sort of ridiculous reason as to why. I guess I should get used to the fact that you and your wife don't want me to as a role model for them even though that's what I am supposed to be as their older sister.
I also know that I have always gone out of my way to be there for my sisters, to make sure they know I’m there for them, but I guess those roles don't go both ways. Dad, you never showed up for my sporting events or school plays, but you always make it for my sisters' events even if it is a day that we are supposed to see each other - you canceled on me for them. I can’t tell you the amount of times that I have been jealous of some of my best friends because they all had the one thing that I have been dreaming about and wanting my entire life, a dad that showed up and was there for them no matter what the event in their life was. My family has bent over backwards for me over the years just to help put a smile on my face, especially when I’ve had to hold back tears every time someone asked me about my father or why they’ve never seen him before. They have made me the strong and confident woman I am today with little help from you and your wife. I know now that my life is different from my friends because they were raised by mom and dad, but I was raised by aunts, uncles, grandparents, and mom. Even though I was a part of your life before any of them, the day I ask you to be in mine will be the day I know I will lose you in my life forever because it has always been them before me. I have grown to accept that, even though it hurts me and cuts me to the core knowing that you will never choose me over them. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you or about what things would be like if you played an active role in my life, but you have always had another family that came before me. I question every day if you will be the person to walk me down the aisle at my wedding or if it will be someone else. Your relationship with your wife has destroyed your relationship with me. I had just one, but because of that I am stronger. I missed a childhood with two parents loving and supporting me. As a kid growing up, I missed out on more things than I can put into words because of you. It became the "Blood-Stained Banner." But, even though these versionsĭiffer from the one we see today, the Southern Cross is still widely regardedĭid you forget about me or do you just not care? I don’t know the answer anymore and truly don't want to. Misconstrued as a surrender flag, a red stripe was added to the right side and "Stainless Banner." When the Stainless Banner began being Originally, the cross was sewn into the upper leftĬorner of a white banner, and this version of the flag was known as the
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